Self.

I don't often do self portraits, unless i'm desperate which is quite the reason today.

I don't know why exactly, well I do, but i've been in an awful mood today. Not awful as such, but not good. I have my piano exam next week, and today was meant to be my day of full practice. But I got so frustrated with my 'piano' so that I gave up.

I don't mean to sound snobby and ungrateful at all, but it isn't a 'real' piano. Basically my parents bought an electric piano so that we could control volume and stuff, and use headphones etc. However it isn't without it's problems. I don't like wearing headphones with it, or having it at a volume less than standard piano because you can't get the right balance of hands if you're constantly changing the volume. And also the notes don't tend to sustain for long, even with the pedal.

The pedals too today were playing up, making loud crackly noises when I tried to use them. Scales were are probably my main priority now as they are not something to be desired of. (I swear i've been saying that a lot recently). But there are only so many times you can play C# Minor Contrary motion, and get it wrong before giving up and abandoning all hope.

But back to school tomorrow, and I can have my 'real' piano. The sooner I go to sleep, the sooner I can be reunited with it again. Mum played on my nan's piano the other day, and although it sounds horrendous and is out of tune already (having only been tuned recently), and she came back and tried ours and said she noticed a difference, so there is a chance of getting an upright if I can afford it. Anyways yes, self portrait, lack of time/inspiration. ENJOY ;)