it was such a nice day, windy as hello and we had no kite which is terrible but I saw a red and shiny blue butterfly in the garden this morning and it smelled like spring today. I like the extra light since springing ahead and I am pleased, very pleased.


I have become a grey's anatomy addict (I never, ever ever watch tv so it's shocking and weird, but I am watching it on dvd so that's a little better at least till I get caught up)

and anyways, you find your inspiration anywhere you can, and something in it inspired me to go forth and say what I have left unsaid to people for all my life. not like the lovestuff cause I never have hesitated to tell people those things but like for an example my first son's birth father did something to him over christmas which was shocking in its neglect and so I mailed him saying that basically think how he felt but you didnt and that's why you will live with the repercussions of your inactions to your son.

so, no one wants to hear that and while I was quite polite and said nothing that was spiteful nor anything untrue and he mailed back some ....well, to say hatred would be putting it lightly. I laughed at it because it was so funny (I mean at his age, sending dirty photos from photobucket?)...

but how must he be feeling in order to be able to spew that kind of hatred? I can't say I am sorry in a way because what he's done to my boy is deplorable and my boy is the one I will take up for obviously, I cant take this guy's problems from him after all. but I just feel so sad that people can do these things and be filled with that kind of misery and hate. It's not good for anyone.