Silent skies

I wish when I looked up into the sky I could find some answers. I am so tired, exhausted really. My sleep is broken, I feel anxious, disengaged. I hardly show any interest in the children. It's as though I have withdrawn into some shadowy half life. My hands shake, I can't hold my camera properly and even if I do I have no interest in capturing anything. My heart races and I am losing weight. I am losing my hair too :( My doctor continues to insist I am suffering from anxiety and depression. I just know I am not.