I did it.

1. I am sinking under the weight of all this work. Sleepless nights, tiredness, worry. I know this is supposed to be a Blip of good things although tonight that's hard. Ultimately it is though, or it will be. This is turning out to be a journal about right now and what's happening for me right now is the biggest thing I have ever worked on. Some days that is triumphant. Some days it isn't.

2. An interview with Mark from the Scotsman. I hope I can hide how scared I really am.

3. The afternoon descends and I let myself get het up. I moan a lot, and stop myself from actually getting things done because of the moaning.

4. I head home late and talk to mum. I don't bother about drawing and just go straight back to Stanmore. My first visit in a while and I discover my plant has died. Humf.

5. There's post on the mat. My 10k certificate has arrived. I did it, it says.