Baby E in his great granddad's rocking chair.

We came to the cottage again. So much fun, it's so relaxing here. We warmed up the sauna and it is so nice to walk from the sauna back inside to the house because the weather is just warm enough that you won't freeze but still cool enough to feel the nice breeze after the hot sauna.

Here is baby E in a rocking chair. My grandfather used to sit in that, it was his chair. He and my grandma lived in that house for quite a long time before moving closer to the city. My grandfather passed away when I was pregnant with baby E. When we went to say our last goodbyes I didn't know that it was going to be an open casket, actually I was told that it wasn't going to be. So I was really upset when they opened it in the middle of the service. I felt so angry that I just wanted to hurt somebody, really a feeling that I wasn't expecting. I wanted to just run away from it all but couldn't because all the doors were closed, I wanted to kick the doors open but luckily realized that it would've been just a bit too dramatic for all the rest of the people in there. I cried all the way back home and all evening and night too. That was the night when I first could feel my baby moving in my belly as well.

My grandfather was in a war when he was really young. He didn't have to go there because he was too young still, but he volunteered. He ended up carrying pieces of grenade in his face the rest of his life. I was always very proud of him, still am. He never talked about the war until just couple of years before his death. He had such courage in him.

He met my grandma at young age as well and they loved each other and looked after each other all of their lives. My grandma died just two years before my grandfather. She only met my daughter once before passing.

Today we drove by the building where they lived almost twenty years after moving away from the house that is now our cottage. I wished that we could've gone there and visit them and that I could've shown my babies to them. They would've been so proud of them.

Well, anyway I probably won't be doing so much commenting for now since this connection here is really slow for some reason. I've been uploading this picture now for hours and then I had to chance it to a smaller version and it still took a long time. So unless it's starting to work faster I can't comment for a while. But I'll catch up when we go back home.