See whos looking at you

Goodmorning everyone

I took this thismorning after dropping Thomas at school, i had a few different flowers and bugs so not sure if i picked the right one this morning but i do like the colour and how this little bettle is looking at the camera. Im not very inspired today reall lots going on in my mind so feel a little lost really.

Im going to have cuddles with Olivia and maybe have a few tears my friend is always in my thoughts after loosing her daughter it will be a week already today and her funeral is on friday, im doing all i can to be there and when your miles apart all i can do is speak on the phone and text, ive done a collage of photos for her with some poems and also helping her with songs and hymes. Its so hard and i dont know what i would do if i was in her shoes. Ive been close with my sister who baby boy Jack died after 2 months he was born at 24 weeks and fought for his life for 2 months. My friends little girl has been doing it for 4 years and last year had a heart trasplant but a few months ago she was showing signs of rejection, her kidneys were not working properly so the Friday 13th May she was taken in for an op to check how bad her kidneys were but her poor heart didnt handle it and she was brought back twice. She was in icu all the time and on 16th she just couldnt go on any more. My frind treats me like a family memeber i was the only one she told other than family. Im just so sad for them but trying to give them the strenghth they need. And i didnt tell you we have never met in person, we have been friends for 2 years and have made a very special connection. We were gonna meet in july but with her daughter being ill we had to put a hold on it. Now we are planning to meet in a few months.She also has 3 other children 1, 3 and 7.

So sorry for waffling on here and please whoever is on my facebook page please keep it here. My friend has said i can change my profile picture to a picture of her daughter on friday and i will also dedicate a song to her.

Hope you have a lovely day and cherish every moment with your family and children.

Lots of love
vicky. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx