Creativity.

School is done. Which is a good thing to think about, cause I never have to go back and that's pleasing. But also a bad thing to think about cause it makes me feel like its Summer already...and subsequently makes me ignore my exams/impending doom.

I find it hard to ever really know if I've done enough for exams. Usually you panic no matter how much revision you've done and either get in and discover you've taken it all in, or sit there hating yourself because you could have done more. It's just so hard to gauge and that's what it feels like just now. I sit for hours writing notes on every topic I can think of, memorising quotes and learning facts, and then I look at an essay question and discover I have no idea what I would write if I got it in the exam. Hopefully the pressure of the situation will make me think properly...there's always the fear it won't, however.
Every other year, the exams only really set the precedent for the next. In fourth year it was almost like a trial run at subjects, to see how you'd do next year and give you some experience. In fifth year it was basically a determination of which Universities you could apply to; if you did badly you could easily adapt your choices and it would be fine. But this year there is specific grades I need and if I don't get them...there's not really much flexibility, if i do badly, then I'm not going. It's not such a nice feeling.

Pointless spraff over. Blip of my creative workstation this evening whilst making my flower costume for tomorrow's informal S6 photo (yes, I plan to wear the flowerpot). I did 2 hours of revision (not reeeally enough) then did this and watched The Blindside. It was really good to chill and do something fun. But tomorrow and Thursday will have to be completely focused.