Morning!

On my way to my new job. Already don't like it I wanted to get out of the healthcare field. Not get a job that requires me to get up at 3:30 to get there by 5! I prayed for a reason to get up everyday and feel like a joke has been played on me. I get sick when I have to arise so early b/c I don't sleep good at night and I just can't think straight. Plus with my current emotional state and back problems, I'm just not sure I can do it. I suppose if I was excited about going everyday it would be easier to get up, but I'm SO tired and all I want to do all the time is cry and sleep ( I'm on meds that don't help) Is this a job really from the Lord? I'd much rather stay home and care for my Granddaughter! Not to try to sound like a whiney baby, but since this is my journal I guess I can write what I want :) hopefully I'll look back and see the point...