Nothing?

Technically, you could say this was nothing. Basically it is an empty box with empty wrappers in it, so surely, technically it is nothing? It is important to ensure that there is nothing in the box, except empty wrappers, therefore there is nothing in the box that you would want, so once again - technically it is nothing isn't it?

Half an hour ago I was heading for a blipless day. I had considered this prospect yesterday and decided that it was okay to have a day with no blip. After having so much to blip on holiday, the challenge of finding something was already daunting.

I thought that if I had a blipless day before my 200th then it would be okay to continue to blip just as and when I felt the urge. Surely that's ok?

Well, it would seem not. As I sat down and ate the last three of my valentine's chocolate hearts, I put the wrappers in the box and laid it down. There was no need to blip. I was ok, calm infact, almost horizontal about the prospect. Then the doubt - what did this mean, was I giving up? What if the urge never took me again? What if I suddenly forgot everything I was begining to remember all over again? What if, what if, what if.

I picked up the box ready to move to the bin and there she was, full of light. and technically, full of nothing.

Is this failure?

p.s. please don't for a minute think that I am very controlled over my eating of Valentine's chocolates. I was only given them last week, when my No. 1 boy rememberd he hadn't given me them - he is soon to be my No 2. boy if he doesn't pull his socks up!