Take me out of myself

Dear Heart,
Today was waking up mid-afternoon to crippling loneliness and fresh tears. You know those mornings where everything feels like it has ended? As if everyone you have ever cared about has slipped out of your world entirely? Those mornings where you wish desperately to step outside of yourself because the emptiness inside you is so wide and hungry that it threatens to swallow you whole?
I tried to offset this feeling with daffodils, cycling and Chinese food. It has helped somewhat, and now I have only to crawl into bed and dream.
Love, Lydia x