The pain of blipping

I'm frustrated. I'm trying to figure out what blipping nowadays means to me. I'll admit that it has been and still is an addiction to me. I DON'T LIKE THIS. Am I in control of my life or is my life controlling me? Why would I NEED blipping? Isn't that really worrying to feel a NEED of HAVING to do that every day? I have to work out my relation to blip. How I want it to be in the future.

On the other hand I wouldn't have met the man of my life without Blip. What more could I really ask for?