A chair is still a chair...

This the chair from this blip.

I slept a solid three hours last night. Today felt like seven days and I just felt emotional about everything due to my lack of sleep. I could take a nap now but that would only mess up my sleep schedule more so I must stay awake.

Some realizations in February:
1. Today I realized that so much of the stuff I worry and care about won't matter in 5 years. It may not even matter in 5 months. So why should I waste my time, thoughts, and energy on stuff that doesn't even matter, that no one else cares about and that I shouldn't care about. I care so much because I just overanalyze and make everything and everyone important.
2. I'm going to stop making things complicated in my head because my problems are no where near what others may be dealing with. You never know what someone else is going through and to make assumptions about others is foolish. No one knows what has happened to another to make them the way that they are.
3. I am going to stop complaining, or at least try.
4. I am going to stop doing theater for a while.
5. I am going to stop caring about what others think. No matter how much I say I don't care what they think, I always do. I'm going to start saying it because I actually mean it.
6. I require a lot food and sleep.
7. I should be more thankful for the people that put up with me in my life.
8. It's actually been a lovely year without you.
9. My height isn't the only reason why people don't like me.
10. If you think about it there's only 3 more months left of school.
11. I realized why February only has 28 days. It's because February sucks.

This rant of a list was brought to you by my angst and lack of sleep.
March needs to be good.

"If something won't matter in about 5 years, just don't waste your time worrying about it."